Friday I joined the ranks of the unemployed.  My prior company, a la mode, Inc. decided to downsize in the Salt Lake office and eliminated me and another product manager, moving those responsibilities back to Oklahoma City, where the company is located.

I’d been there 8 years.

Needless to say, it was a shock.  But that’s not even the full story.  Friday morning I woke up, and went to see the doctor about a couple painful lumps that had been lingering in my breast for over two years.  I’d just read a large article on MSN on breast cancer in men, and figured I’d better go get checked.  I went in to see my primary care physician, who after a brief inspection, confirmed that indeed it did appear suspiciously like breast cancer, and that I should go see a surgeon immediately to have a biopsy.

I’d just left that appointment, walked into the office and sat down, when I was called into the main conference room to meet with our director of HR who was video conferencing in on the big screen.

What a morning.

LOL, I drove home and walked into the house to the quizzical expression of my wife (who coincidentally knew nothing of my visit to the doctor).   I said something like “honey, I’ve got a couple things I need to tell you”…

And then I took the weekend off!

Tomorrow I’ll have the results from meeting with the surgeon.  In regards to my health, as I said in a txt to my bishop on Friday “I’m not concerned at all.  There is no room for fear when you have faith.  The two are entirely incompatible, they cannot coexist.  And I have absolute faith, which means inherently, I have no fear.”  Besides, there are lots of other things it could be.

In regards to my job, I’m also not afraid.  I’ve actually had several things I’ve been meaning to start up, but have simply lacked the time to do so.  Now all of a sudden I’ve got some time on my hands!  ;-)  And I’m motivated.  Thanks in part to my boss, the company owner, who was uncommonly generous with his severance (generosity is one of his hallmarks), I’ve now got a little bit of time to try kicking something off.  I look at this as one of those catalytic events in life, an opportunity to pursue my dreams.  At this point, every door is open, I just have to choose which one.

I’m convinced a year from now I’ll look back on this with profound gratitude.  I’ll be sharing more on this over the coming days.  But needless to say, one of the things I intend to invest far more time into is this blog!  So there’s already an upside to this weekend’s events.

I look forward to many more conversations together.


8 replies
  1. Margaret
    Margaret says:

    Wow! What a great attitude you have. I admire your faith and courage, and that is ultimately what will get you through this. I have a feeling you have a lot of family and friend support, too. I will definitely be praying for you, as will many others. Take care, my friend.

  2. Kami
    Kami says:

    Darn it, Rusty. I remember when I was always so irritated with you whistling your way to early morning seminary. And, here you are again, cheerily whistling your way through job loss and health scares. What in the world drives you?? You are an inspiration. We’ll be in touch.

  3. Rusty Lindquist
    Rusty Lindquist says:

    Good News

    The surgeon says I have nothing to worry about. It’s something called gynecomastia, which isn’t cancerous or dangerous, just uncomfortable, and can be surgically removed. It just manifests itself a lot like breast cancer.

    Which leaves me of course, to now focus on creating more good news… income! And I know exactly how to do that. It’ll be the topic of my next post.

  4. Kade
    Kade says:

    Rusty, I am happy so see that one obstacle is conquered. I will be praying for you on the other. The cut off for new hires in my line of work is 37 so you still have time :-) I still sometimes pretend I’m Seargent Largent; it could be like old times.

  5. Rusty Lindquist
    Rusty Lindquist says:

    LOL, those were good times! And thanks for the prayers. Now I know I’ll find something soon! And Kami, I totally miss those early morning seminary days. Getting up SO early, scripture chase… those were the days.

  6. Matt
    Matt says:

    Wow, Rusty. Well, if there’s anyone that can pull through this, it’s you. ALM just lost the best thing they had going for it. I’m glad your chest thing wasn’t anything bad. Phew.

    Let’s do lunch again soon.


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